living up to my new nickname-Buffy

soooo i know my blog has been about venting but its not always about love....we all know...love sucks but it can also be a wonderful thing...
but i guess in honor of ny fashion veek i should talk about fashion....yes fashion...one of the most interesting topics there is known to man kind hahaha...everyone has their view of fashion....what it is and what it shouldnt be......

so my job is having a fashion show at the armory on park ave...and apparently we can attend the after party i may be hitting that up...i also got invited to attend a couple of shows...dunno wether i will be attending...since i am going to register for school tomorrow andddddd i am working a lot this week....

anyways right now being a mom is tough...my sons been kinda wiggin =X but man when he smiles he melts my heart lol and i turn to mush....

i kinda miss some of my friends....


pz and lub

-monica

I HATE................

YOU!

my heart belongs to.....

HIM!

I hate u!

I never wanted this to be a love blog or anything or that sort....its just happening that way....that most of my blogs are about him...
And right now I hate him.....

I never expected this to be where we r but right now I can't stand him.....

The only person this is going to effect is my son....and its unfortunate....whatever happens between me and his father....will have a longterm effect on him.....I just hope he doesn't become another statistic.....

Have a goodnight everyone....

-m.

feist marathon

I'm sittin on my couch lookin out the window and listening to feist non stop....
I'm in a weird place with jeremy...he's mad that I have a blog and ppl prolly read it...the thing is I don't think ppl do...not sure...but this is my blog and ill do what I want =]

Well him and I got into an argument earlier and its like sometimes during arguments we may say things we don't mean but I'm starting to feel like some of the things being said r things he really means...he's said some hurtful things to me which he later takes back....

Relationships r NOT easy...especially when a child is involved....I don't wanna be one of those couples that stays with one another and they r both miserable for the sake of their child....that's not fair to each other or the child.....I guess time will tell...I love him with all my heart but I find myself h-ing him more....I feel like I can't live with him but I can't live without him....the things boys do to us girls.....drive us fucking crazy....alll boys! Even my son drives me crazy sometimes lol its that damn Y choromosome.....

A lot of things r on my mind....lately my mind has so many things to process...there r a few things besides my issues with him that r taking over my mind....sucks....I hate when things dat don't matter take overrrrr....arghhh....

Anyways...I'm in desparate need of new glasses....anyone got a hook up I will gladly accept them....

Ok I'm off for now...I'm sure I'm going to get shit for this...

Pz and lub

Xooxoxxox
-Monica

annoyed....

i dont know why but something is really bothering me and i know it shouldnt but it does....

its not like it should be that way but still...i guess im overreacting....

i cant help that it bothers me though....=/ shit sucks

anyways im supposed to go to the beach 2day....we shall see what happens....


im annoyed, jealous, mad, and disappointed...but i knew this could happen sooner or later =/

randomness

so here i am in my cold room....just thinking....
thinking about:
what im goin to do today
the argument i had with my dad last night
what im going to do this weekend
when im going to go back to school to register
why do i always torture myself......

lots of things on my mind dat i dont wanna say.....