i feel like my life is falling apart....

i couldnt be happier with my son but everything else around me is falling apart....

i hate the way i been feeling lately....im miserable....im sad...im just not happy...xavier is the only thing that makes me forget how i feel....i just dont understand how it got to this point....

im constantly getting anxiety...im starting to feel depressed again....shit sucks....

the main cause of all of this is him! i am really starting to hate what he does to me....how he makes me mad...how he has no motivation to do anything....how he doesnt give a shit....how he always thinks by reversing the roles will make me feel bad....im starting not to care....im starting to h u....and i really never expected things to get to this but they have...it has surcome to this....whos fault is it....who knows....its mine and urs....but all i know is that u r not happy and neither am i....

u think imma bitch well i think ur an asshole...an immature one...a lazy fuck....a fat ass...a mooch....


i may later regret what i am writing now but all i know is what i feel in my heart right now....and i just dont wanna be here anymore.....
i really dont.....


goodnight everyone....

tomorrow is a minute away and it may be better....who knows....

Move ur big head!

thats what jeremy just yelled to me....i kinda forgot i had this =/ so im sorry....its kinda cool that imma use this to vent and share pics of my loved ones....

my birthday is next month a few weeks....imma turn the big 25! a quarter of a century! big deal....my son turns 1 the week after me....and dats exciting too



i have so many things to plan for next month...im kinda stressed.....lots of things happening....lots of obstacles....lots of funny moments....lots of tears....lot of laughs....

pz and lub.....


-monies